photo by the talented June and Jae Photography
I can't believe this part of my life is now. Getting married is something you think about your entire childhood and throughout early adulthood. I can't say I'm a girl who's been planning her wedding since 5 years old, but I've always planned to start a family, God willingly.
I'll be honest -- before I met Tim, I thought I had the potential to be quite the catch for a guy. I know, how very conceited of me. I knew I was a motivated person who would work hard at a relationship, and I thought that was enough to be the "perfect" significant other. Through being with Tim, I have been proven all-too-wrong. Being in a relationship is like looking in a mirror. You see everything about your self, good and bad. When you see the good, there's no better feeling. When you see the bad and realize that your actions have significantly impacted someone else for the worse at that moment, you realize just how imperfect and sinful you can be. Being with Tim has made me a better person. Not because I'm anything amazing, but because he's patiently guided me through all my wrongdoings and continues to do so.
That's the thing about a great relationship. You can do something so hurtful and show all your ugly to the person, and they don't run away. That is love. It is waking up every single day and choosing to accept the other person for all their strengths, weaknesses and faults. I thank God every single day that He has given me someone who has accepted everything about me. I don't take that for granted. I am emotional, irrational, dramatic, and annoying, yet Tim shows me unconditional love, just as Christ shows us unconditional love no matter how we act.
You should probably know that I'm tearing up at this point. I am so overwhelmed with joy that I get to accept this man as my husband until the day we die. Yes, marriages can last. No, it's not naive. If God intended marriage to last, then with His guidance, we'll persevere throughout the years. There is no plan b. There is no alternate option. On Saturday, I start the rest of my life. I couldn't be any happier to do so.
To my past, younger self: Have trust. You will meet someone someday that will be everything you hoped for in a man and more. Have faith that God will time everything perfectly, according to His' plan.
To my present self: Start taking everyone's advice and enjoy this journey. No one will remember if every detail of your wedding is perfect. There's no such thing as perfect. Take a deep breath and enjoy the most important day of your life.
To my future, older self: Persevere. No matter how tough marriage can be, wake up every single day choosing to give your all in your relationship. Pray often. Have faith.
It's time to go enjoy my wedding! I'll be taking a break from blogging throughout the wedding and honeymoon in Europe, but can't wait to reconnect after everything is said and done. I'll be casually updating my Instagram in the meantime, if you care to follow along.